I was scrolling on Facebook, and one of my people was sharing about how generational curses don’t exist. And I wanted to be mad about it. But we concluded with Vader that two things can be true at the same time. Cause this person was seemingly doing well, but if you knew me and my stunts, you’d know I wasn’t the first in my bloodline to ever do them. Did I reach new heights? Yeah, but I wasn’t the original.
We’ve covered my thoughts about generational curses in a separate blog post (clearly I blog about everything). But one thing that was apparent in Bootcamp is how far we’ve strayed from God. Like I mentioned in Part 1, I was self-righteous. I was telling God that I’ve done everything, and I was being an entitled brat because our works are as what?
Exactly.
I wanted to live the dream: “If any man be in Christ, old things are passed away; behold, old things are made new.” But that wasn’t my reality, and it sure would be cheaper than going to Bootcamp. I was still seeing the same flames my relatives who believe in the underground gang were seeing. The dreams were a horror movie, and at the risk of oversharing, I won’t expand on the spiritual issues I was facing.
When I came out of Bootcamp, all I could think of was, “Yeah, we should be dead.” Because the wages of sin were proper due. I learned that God doesn’t make a mistake. If you’re seeing fires, they’re at the right address. It’s not a clerical error by an exhausted civil servant. I laugh about how I’d say to God, “I don’t know what I reaped to be sowing this.” At Bootcamp, I found out! As we would say in the Maths classes (which I failed), “Show your working.” And in Bootcamp, each module shows the whole formula as to why you’re seeing what you’re seeing. And when you repent, it’s genuine, and it’s with a deeper understanding of God’s unconditional love and the finished works of the cross.
Bootcamp isn’t the viral deliverance we see online. Drama, theatrics and sweaty foreheads. It’s a personal journey of repentance and realignment. Each person prays for their own struggles. If you’re not used to praying for yourself, you’ll struggle at Bootcamp because that’s the difference between those who yield results and those who do not. Did I play at the first Bootcamp? Yes. Did it show? Yes.
Should I wrap it up here, or should I blog about the second Bootcamp experience?
