2018 was a great year! The year had amazing opportunities in my life, love and career. I made so much progress and I grew. Looking back at it I really progressed double compared to 2017 and at the current rate, I’m not ready for what the rest of 2019 has in store for me.
King James Version
And David inquired at the LORD, saying, Shall I pursue after this troop? shall I overtake them? And he answered him, Pursue: for thou shalt surely overtake them, and without fail recover all.
1 Samuel 30:8
This verse is the epitome of my 2018 because once I went through #SheHeals late last year, I put away some childish things and became an adult. I got honest with myself and started to make a change like Michael Jackson in Man in the Mirror. Going through the #SheHeals blogging challenge is one of the things that I’d like to attribute my 2018 success to. Things about the past got clearer and upon these I was able to lose the dead weight in my thoughts to become the exceptional woman that I became in 2018.
Having shed off my fears and insecurities, I was able to accept opportunities that came into my life. My current workplace is a highlight because I have managed to stay there for eleven months. Before this, I’d quit after only half a year of employment. My dream job also came knocking and I was so excited. What level of favour is this whereby a job headhunts you. 2018 opportunities were coming in left, right and centre. I got to handpick the ones that I wanted to get involved in.
I started seeing a very nice young man.
Those that know me, know that I’ve been through some bull like a matador when it comes to relationships. If you can name it, I’ve been through it. I’ve fallen in love and shattered like Humpty Dumpty off the wall. Had one guy lowkey call me a promiscuous woman for having so many exes. I’m not sure what made him think that dating automatically means that the relationship was consummated. I’d like to play it cool and say I kept leaving because I didn’t wanna settle for less that I deserved but the truth it, once or twice I was ready to sell out and settle for the sake of saving face in the streets.
I’m glad I didn’t.
I’ve met someone that made it all worth it. Yup, God had to pry me from my previous toxic relationships. He’d tell me to leave and I’d be too stubborn to listen. I’d enamer myself to my suitors to the point that I had to be broken in order to be put back together. I was in too deep, there was no way I was getting free without casualties.
He is my perfect fit. He makes the pain that I went through to get free for him worth it. I look back in retrospect and thank God for all the times he rescued me and saved me from myself. His plan for me is far greater than what I was ready to settle for. Previous boyfriends had made me feel like I was crazy or too much for being me and here he was able to handle me, my voices and the outrageous dreams that I have. All this time I had been trying to pour the storm that I am into teacups. They kept breaking and blaming me for not being able to contain me. Until I met an ocean that showed me a love without end and let me be me.